Humbled

Being a parent is by far one of the most humbling experiences I've ever had. I have been a not-so-great mother recently, yelling more than I should, giving a punishment without fully understanding the situation and just overall not doing my best at being a mom. It was very humbling the other day to get down at my kids level, look them both in the eye and say "mommy is sorry I was yelling so much and getting so frustrated today. It's not your fault and I love you very much".
You know what my kids did? They looked up at me with those beautiful eyes of theirs and said "it's okay mommy, can we play this game now?" It always amazes how much our kids can let things just slide off their backs. They offered forgiveness to me so quickly, much quicker then I'm sometimes willing to offer it to people. There was no looking back, they just forgave and moved on. It was so humbling. And that apology I offered, that a part of me didn't want to give, changed the mood for the rest of the day and the days to come. It was hard to do but so worth it. These kids:

make it worth it. These beautiful children are my heart and they deserve my best. 

Why did I choose this to my next post after such a long blogging absence? I'm not sure. Maybe if there are other mother's having the same frustrations, you can know you're not alone. Maybe to serve as a reminder that even though some of us are itching to have a routine back and for our kids to return to school, it's important to treasure these moments & days we have with them. While it's something we hear often and it can become cliche, it's something that's been resonating with me a lot lately. Whatever you take from this post, I hope you enjoy your time with your kids on this long weekend. I know I will.